"I’m afraid that if I stop writing I’ll start feeling." - Carrie Fisher



My favourite of all Carrie Fisher quotes, ""I’m afraid that if I stop writing I'll stop thinking and I’ll start feeling." #CarrieFisher #PrincessLeia #StarWars I read Carrie Fisher's Princess Diarist memoirs book, and there was so much that I wanted to quote; it's so emotive, and I utterly encourage everybody to read it, particularly if you love mental health quotes. Today I wanted to share with you my favourite passage from the text, which was extracted from one of Carrie's diaries written at the time that she immortalised Princess Leia in the 1977 Star Wars a New Hope film. It's rare that I find somebody who I feel would understand me, my mind, and my emotions, but as soon as I read this I knew it: Carrie is kindred.


I read it, I wept, I read it again, and then I put the book in a drawer. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I knew I had to do something with it. This is that something.


THE PASSAGE FROM CARRIE FISHER'S PRINCESS DIARIST (p126, published by Penguin)

“I am the only one who can come to my rescue. I am the only one who can help me now. But I don’t know how to help myself. It must follow then that I don’t want to help myself. That I want to completely drain myself of all hope, which will leave me safe and dry with nothing to lose. The point where it can only get better, if I allowed it to get better. I can’t focus on the good things. There are good things going on all around me, but I don’t trust them, I can’t make use of them, don’t have the time for them; I’m too preoccupied with my precious panic. It seems to be demanding almost all of my attention. My own personal private collection of panic. I need to write. It keeps me focused for long enough to complete thoughts. To let each train of thought run to its conclusion and let a new one begin. It keeps me thinking. I’m afraid that if I stop writing I’ll stop thinking and start feeling. I can’t concentrate when I’m feeling. I try to put the feelings into thoughts or words but it always seems to come out in disjointed sweeping statements. Adolescent jargon peppered with random selections from a fairly gaudy vocabulary. A Frederick’s of Hollywood vocabulary. I wish that I could leave myself alone. I wish that I could finally feel that I punished myself enough. That I deserved time off for all my bad behaviour. Let myself off the hook, drag myself off the rack where I am both torturer and torturee.”


The royalty-free music is I'll Remember You by Jeremy Blake


Carrie's full name: Carrie Frances Fisher

Mother: Debbie Reynolds

Father: Eddie Fisher

Brother: Todd Fisher

Daughter: Billie Lourd

Date of birth: 21st October 1956

When did Carrie Fisher die? 27th December 2016

What did Carrie Fisher die of? Cardiac arrest/suspected sleep insomnia

Where is Carrie Fisher buried? Forest Lawn Memorial Park, Hollywood Hills, U.S.


List of Carrie Fisher Books/Bibliography

Novels

Postcards from the Edge

Surrender the Pink

Delusions of Grandma

The Best Awful There Is


Non-fiction

Wishful Drinking

Shockaholic

The Princess Diarist


Screenplays

Postcards from the Edge

These Old Broads


Plays

Wishful Drinking

A Spy in the House of Me


LIST OF CARRIE FISHER FILMS AND ROLES

Shampoo Lorna Karpf

Star Wars Princess Leia Organa

The Empire Strikes Back

The Blues Brothers Mystery Woman

Under the Rainbow Annie Clark

Return of the Jedi Princess Leia Organa

Garbo Talks Lisa Rolfe

The Man with One Red Shoe Paula

Hannah and Her Sisters April

Hollywood Vice Squad Betty Melton

Amazon Women on the Moon Mary Brown

The Time Guardian Petra

Appointment with Death Nadine Boynton

The 'Burbs Carol Peterson

Loverboy Monica Delancy

She's Back Beatrice

When Harry Met Sally... Marie

Sweet Revenge Linda

Sibling Rivalry Iris Turner-Hunter

Postcards from the Edge

Drop Dead Fred Janie

Soapdish Betsy Faye Sharon

Hook

This Is My Life Claudia Curtis

Austin Powers: International Man of Mystery Therapist

Scream 3 Bianca

Lisa Picard Is Famous

Heartbreakers Ms Surpin

Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back Nun

A Midsummer Night's Rave Mia's Mom

The Rutles 2: Can't Buy Me Lunch

Charlie's Angels: Full Throttle Mother Superior

Wonderland Sally Hansen

Stateside Mrs Dubois

Undiscovered Carrie

The Wubbulous LIVE Alexis La Sound

Suffering Man's Charity

Cougar Club Glady Goodbey

The Women Bailey Smith

White Lightnin' Cilla

Fanboys Doctor

Sorority Row Mrs Crenshaw

Wishful Drinking

Maps to the Stars

Star Wars: The Force Awakens General Leia Organa

Bright Lights: Starring Carrie Fisher and Debbie Reynolds

Star Wars: The Last Jedi General Leia Organa

Star Wars: The Rise of Skywalker

Wonderwell Hazel